last day of the semesterr!

finally its the last day of the semester. ive been waiting for so long! this semester has just been work work work. i cant wait until a week from now when im home doing absolutely nothing with me life. a week from now ill be working at the salon and going to the gym everyday. fun fun fun. it sounds so much better than studying, doing homework, and going to class. and i dont have to wake up early anymore. i usually work at night so every day i can wake up at 12, eat lunch, go to the gym at 3 then go to work at 5. its gonna be awesome. as long as i can get some steady hours at work. then its christmas. i love christmas. its my favorite holiday. its such a happy time of the year. i have to go buy presents for the whole fam and the boyfriend when i go home. i dont know what to get any of them so ill most likely be wandering around the mall for hours. i cant wait. haha. that should be very entertaining. i really have no idea what to get my boyfriend. after two and a half years im basically out of ideas. i was like lets just go on a vacation or something forget presents lets go somewhere warm. but then i remembered that im going to aruba with my family and hes going to mexico with his family. and then im going to miami for a week to visit my roommate and he goes to school in miami so its basically pointless for us to go to florida and were both already going out of the country and i figured it was stupid for us to wait until the summer or spring break for a christmas gift. 

anyway im in bio right now. my last bio106 lecture ever. this is the most boring class in the world and i absolutely can not stand it. i usually go because i feel guilty going but it is literally the worst part of my day every monday wednesday and friday from 2-3pm. i will never take a class with dr. via again. ive never been so miserable in a bio class in my life. im not even doing that badly in it. its just so freaking boring and i could have an A if she taught anything. im pretty sure every test all she does is try to trick us and twists her words around so well puposely fail. ugh i can not wait until this final is over. its going to be terrible trying to memorize a textbook since she doesnt test us off of anything we learn in class. i might as well have just read the stupid textbook and not even went to class. i would have learned more if i dedicated 3 solid hours a week to memorizing the textbook instead of sitting here staring at a wall and typing my life away because im so bored. last lecture she read us dr. seuss. really? dr. seuss? im pretty sure i read that when i was 5 and i dont need my college professor to read me dr. seuss when were supposed to be learning. okay im going to go and pretend to pay attention even though im completely lying and theres no way im going to pay attention. thank god after this my semester is over!

its 65 degrees and december 10

so todays weather has been absolutely absurd. i woke up this morning expecting to bundle up and i was excited because my hair was down so i could finally wear my winter hat when my friend walks into my room and goes "its ridiculously warm out..you should probably just wear shorts." i looked back at her absolutely perplexed at her statement. she responded with "well maybe not shorts but its supposed to be 65 degrees today." i mean i know maryland is south of new york, but were not in florida here. 65 degrees in the winter? this is absurd. techinically its not winter until the 21st but still were close enough. it should be in the 30s and 40s. not the 50s and 60s. i ended up wearing pants and a sweatshirt and sweating the entire day. and of course its obscenely hot in the dorms too. we probably dont even need the heat on today. i can probably open the window and wont be cold. the other night we opened our window and woke up shivering in the middle of the night because it was so cold. i dont understand this weather. its eratic and crazy. im afraid that everyone is going to get sick because its hot one day then freezing the next. i dont need this right before finals week. i dont get any sleep as it is so combine that with this awful weather and im going to get sick. i woke up with a sore throat this morning. im pretty sure its because i go to bed at 2am every night and wake up at either 7am or 9am everyday. i want to catch up on sleep this weekend except ill be too busy studying my life away. i just hope my body makes it to next thursday when my last final is. the good thing is all of my finals are late in the day, except for chem which is at 10:30 except im certainly not complaining about that one. this way i can wake up an hour earlier and study instead of waking up at 7 in order to make it to an 8am final like in high school, i can wake up at 10, study, eat, and then go take my final. this is actually really helpful and i think it will ultimately help me do better on my finals. i am certainly not a morning person so being awake will definately be helpful. i just wish i had more time. like today right now im napping then going to dinner at adels because i have 200 dollars left on my meal plan and i need to use some of them up or im going to have 100 extra dollars when i go home and i feel bad having all of this unused money. when i come back i have to do my chem lab that is due tomorrow which i heard is tons of pointless graphing, then i have to do my chem prelab for tomorrow. then im going to go to the gym if its not past 10 already which im hoping it wont be. then im going to come back and try to do either my 2 bio quizzes or my chem homework. if i dont do them today then im going to have to do both tomorrow along with my english paper. and tomorrow im not going to get home before 3. there just isnt enough hours in a day to do all of this work. its so frustrating.i want to have all of my work done by friday so i can just study all day friday, saturday, and sunday. im hoping this will be enough time but im assuming it's not. its definately crunch time and its going to be impossible.

last week of classes

wow time has really been flying by. its already the last week of classes - which probably means i should be starting to study for my finals. oyyy i am definitely not looking forward to that at all. theres so much to do in so little time! atleast my rough draft for my english paper is done so the final draft shouldnt be too bad. im just having some issues with citing because in high school we cited completely differently. every fact and figure that wasnt your own work had to be cited. eh i guess ill figure out how to do it the right way eventually. im not too worried about it as of now - im sure my opinions will change on thursday night. i actually found out alot of interesting information while i was researching. i even found an article about a guy saying that tearing your acl is nothing and that you should be able to walk around fine after you tear your acl. then he went on to say that women used to be working in the field and they would "pop out a baby, shove it in a barrel, and go back to work"..i want to know what that guy was on when he wrote that article. i had never read such a repulsing article in my life. people were commenting on the bottom that the guy was a psycho so i guess im not the only one who thought he was crazy..this really didnt even have anything to do with my paper - i just happened to come across it while i was researching..i guess because it was 3am and i was completely overtired and couldnt sleep that could have made me so furious with the article..im sure i still have more researching to do so im sure ill come across more interesting facts..i had finally finished my rough draft at 3 last night so i tried to sleep but couldnt so i ended up talking with my roommate until like 430 when we finally went to sleep. i had to get up at 9 to go to class today so that was awesome..just kidding..my friend came in my room and said it was FREEZING out and to wear every article of clothing we owned so my friend olivia and i bundled up before we left and we got outside and it wasnt even that cold! i did hear today was the coldest day of hte year so far but its supposed to get warmer after today - i hope. if not i might not make it through finals week if it keeps getting colder. after english class today i got to make my schedule for next semester and of course i got closed out of all of my classes that i need to take so now i have this horrible schedule and no organic chemistry lab. literally there is one lab open and i have a mandatory math class during that time so theres no possible way for me to take it. i emailed my advisor because i was freaking out because i have to take orgo lab so right now im on the waiting list for 5 different orgo labs. one of them better open up or im screwed. scheduling is so frustrating! im so angry about it. ugh so i ended up being late to math because it took so long to make my schedule. math let out early today thank god. then i had chemistry where we found out the average on the test was a 59. she told us that was a good average. yeah okay thats a little weird if you ask me that you think its good that the average was a 59. i figured it should atleast be like a 70 but i guess not. i hate these ridiculous curves. then i went to bio and my teacher still hasnt given our test grades back that we took last wednesday. i dont get why it takes so long to grade. my chem teacher grades our test that day and has our grades posted by midnight that night. so im still waiting on my bio grade and hoping that i didnt fail because then im going to fail bio! i need to stop stressing about grades and actually get some work done.

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i love lazy sundays. except today is going to be filled with football and work so that is not going to be fun. if the jets lose i will be thoroughly upset and not want to do my work. so they better beat the 49ers or else. i have to do my math homework, write my english rough draft, and find classes to take next semester since ive gotten closed out of basically all of them already. i hate being a freshman - this is so frustrating. anywho this weekend was fun. friday night i went to the eve 6 concert at fe. it was fun. i was disappointed because i felt like they really didnt play for that long. the opening band played for almost the same amount of time as eve6. they were good but i feel like now theyre old and washed up. like a few years ago they had hits on the radio and stuff but i havent heard anything new from them in awhile. and now apparently theyre playing in college bars so i guess theyre not all that successful anymore. after the concert we came back to my dorm and ordered panda. we love panda. its kind of our obsession that we order atleast once a week. that was yummyy. we hung out for awhile in the dorm then went to sleep. saturday i got absolutely nothing accomplished. i wanted to do some of my homework but i just needed a break after a long week. i ended up sleeping until 2, then making lunch with my roommate because we were too cold to walk to the dining hall. then we played apples to apples, which might i add is my new favorite game, for a good hour and a half. then we went to go talk to the boys and play with their longboard. and then we ended up with a skateboard. and then i somehow ended up teaching one of my friends how to skateboard since apparently no one knows how. i think its kind of funny i could do it and most of the boys couldnt. we hardcore skateboarded up and down the hallway for a good hour then decided to play soccer/volleyball instead. i had alot of energy to get out and i was way too cold to go to the gym. after volleyball it was already close to 8pm so i figured i should eat some dinner. roomielove and i made dinner because once again we were too cold to go to the dining hall so we made bowl appetite. then we watched flirting with forty on lifetime. best move ever. hottest guy ever. robert buckley. clearly my new obession. the entire point of the movie was to see this ridiculously good looking man naked but whatevs. after that it was already like 11 so we decided to stay in for the night since it was going to snow later anyway. we had fun chilling in the lounge and bonding with our floor. alot of people didnt go out last night because of the weather so there were lots of people to hang out with. we ended up staying up in the lounge until 4am bonding with everyone. it was overall a good night. except the only problem is i slept until 1230 then got dragged to the diner so now its 2:40 and i havent done any of my homework and i want to watch the giants eagles game then the jets 49ers game after so now im having a major dilemma. ill probably do all my homework while watching the games and ill be really distracted. ill figure it out i hope.

hell week is over yayay

the longest week of my life has ended. i can not wait to go out tonight and celebrate. i did work all week this week. i am absolutely exhausted beyond belief. all i did was do work. i had a huge bio test wednesday and then i had a huge chem test today. the bio test was hard as usual because she always tricks us and she hasnt posted the grades yet because she waits like two weeks to do it and the semester is over in two weeks so ill probably never find out. my chem test everyone ran out of time so like no one finished the test so im nervous because i didnt get to answer the last half of the test. i was so happy for that test to be over. i went to bio after and we watched a video about trees - it was so boring. i understand that its important to save the environment and not destroy our natural resources except i did not need to watch a 20 minute video about it when i have a final in a week and a half that has nothing to do with saving the rain forests and the mountaintops. when class was FINALLY over which seemed like 3 hours later i came home and changed and went to the gym. i worked out with my friend jasmyne today whose on the soccer team so shes in awesome shape so it was nice to work out with someone who actually pushes themselves. we were there for like two hours. it was nice to finally relax and not rush because i had 3 hours of homework to come home to in addition to studying. today is my break i decided im not doing any work today. besides this. but this isnt really work. or atleast i dont see it as that. anyway so i just ate and now im thinking about taking a nap before i go out tonight but its already 8 and i have to get ready and apparently be at fe by 10 for the eve 6 concert tonight that im so excited for!!! i cant wait! im going to go attempt at sleeping which is not going to go well at all

i hate finals and i havent even started studying for them yet

its official - these next two weeks are going to absolutely impossible. i have more work to do than there are hours in a day. i dont understand how its physically possible to get this done. im going to have to stop eating, working out, showering, and sleeping in order to do it all. that is disgusting and i refuse to do that so basically im going to fail out of college because i want to do normal, daily functions. its already four today and i have to start my math homework, do my chem lab thats due tomorrow, do my chem prelab by 12:00 tonight, study for my massive chem test on friday, and start my english outline. i would also like to be able to go to the gym, eat dinner, and shower without staying up until 3am since i have to get up at 7am for my lab tomorrow. in total, tonight is going to be awful. i dont mind writing this journal because my night is going to be so miserable i would much rather procrastinate and keep writing. i just want this week to be over. i need a break. i can not work for 19 straight days with no break. im taking friday night off and sleeping all day saturday. except i have work to do this weekend too which is certainly not making life any easier. on top of all the work i have to schedule my classes which im sure many of them are full or are not going to fit into my schedule like i want them to and im going to be stuck with a terrible schedule for next semester. this is just going to be awful. im paranoid about everything. im so stressed that writing about it is almost making me more stressed. i dont have time to breathe or think anymore. venting is good. maybe this will help if for the next two weeks i just write about how awful my life is and how much i want this semester to end. i hate how every class is crunching down and trying to fit in all of these tests and reviews and god knows what else in. next week i have a feeling that i am going to be in crisis mode and just reading my life away and not remembering anything. im afraid if i stop exercising i might go completely insane so im going to go to the gym everyday reguardless of my insane amount of work to do. i just keep thinking about how nice it's going to be when these next 15 days are over with and im free for 5 weeks and i can go relax on the beach in aruba and have fun with my friends in florida except 15 days suddenly seems like an eternity. luckily time flies in college park and i have a feeling this week will be over with before i know it so sunday when i look at my calendar again ill only have 5 more days of classes and 3 days of finals to get through which doesnt look so bad. im going to go work on my schedule now so i can see if any of the classes i want to take are still going to be open. that would be stupendous if they are but i have a strange feeling they arent going to be. cant wait. 

monday monday monday

ah back in cp already! where did the time go? i feel like i wasnt even home. maybe thats because it took me 8 hours to get back here which is ridiculous considering i live four hours away. i hate thanksgiving traffic. next year i decided im coming back monday morning and missing my monday classes because it is completely worth it so i can keep my sanity. i sat on a bus for seven hours. seven miserable hours. it was horrible. and i was all by myself! i left new york city at 2pm and didnt make it back to campus until 10pm. what boggles my mind is in dc there was no traffic at all. and we hit traffic in the most random places. newark, delaware was the worst. theres nothing in newark, delaware besides the university of delaware but i dont think students going back to campus could have caused that much traffic. i didnt even see any accidents. ugh never doing this again. and flying is out of the question since the airports were even worse. my boyfriends flight to miami got delayed for 3 hours and he ended up not getting back to campus until 3am. my friend who was trying to fly back to maryland's flight got cancelled altogether and she couldnt come back until monday morning anyway. traveling for thanksgiving is just ridiculous. it better not be this bad when we go home for christmas break or i will freak out.

aside from the obscene traffic i am happy to be back in college park. the time flew by but i was ready to go back. home just isnt as exciting as it used to be. alot of people changed. things were definately different but atleast my big group of friends was still the same. all 50 of us managed to hang out at some point so that was nice my friends were still there for me. well most of them that is. i was also happy to see my best friends from college when i came home. i was the last one to get back - go figure. my roommate even beat me here from miami even though she left 2 hours later than me. we all caught up on what was going on at home then realized that we all had homework to do. at this point it was already 11 so lucky me i got to stay up until 2am doing my homework. and i actually did work over vacation too. all day saturday i did my math and chem homework so i wouldnt have that much to do when i came back except of course i had an overwhelming amount. why would my life be easy for once? nooo way jose. i couldnt fall asleep last night either since im so used to going to bed at 3am and waking up at 12pm. luckily i didnt have to get up until 9 today but tomorrow i have to get up at 7 so im in trouble if i cant fall asleep tonight. i woke up and walked to english and i realized that i only have to do that horrible half hour walk 5 more times..woo hoo..after english i went to math and apparently they cancelled it at 8 this morning except i didnt check my email this morning so me and two other girls showed up apparently for no reason. im so mad they couldnt have given us a little more notice. by the time we figured it out i had another class in 45 min so it was pointless for me to go back to my dorm. i just went to the library and studied for a half an hour. then i had to go to chem where i have a huge test friday that im going to fail with flying colors. then i went to bio where i have a huge test wednesday. joy. after bio she had a review so i went to the bio review which was extremely boring so i left a half hour early because i was literally falling asleep.  i figured i can study on my own better than being half awake trying desperately to listen to what shes saying that doesnt even make any sense. and now im sitting in my dorm typing my journal in the hallway since my roomate is asleep in my room. shocker there. everyday when i come home shes passed out in the room. its so funny. i think im gonna go relocate to the lounge so i can actually get some work done.

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so wednesday i woke up and saw the bf for the first time in forever..we went to this bagel place that his whole high school goes to and we saw all his friends..i hung out with him for a little while then i wnet back to my old gym and everything was different. i was so mad. they redid the entire thing so i didnt know where anything was. everything was different. it was the weirdest thing ever. i came home for family dinner. my mommy made me brisket. yummy. i hadnt had that since before i left for school. then i got ready and went to one of my best friends from high school's house. i saw all my girls from high school there which was awesome. i was so happy to finally see them again! then we all went to my friend anthonys house because he was having a huge party. thats where i saw EVERYONE. literally almost every single one of my friends from high school was there. theres like 50 of us in my group of friends and everyone and then some more were there. it was amazing to see everyone. and im convinced no one is as happy as i am. wednesday night it reached 1 and i realized that i and all of my friends had no idea how we were getting home. i certainly was not going to call my parents at 2 am to pick us up and i felt bad calling one of my friends parents so i resorted to calling the boyfriend to drive me and my friends home. i have the best boyfriend in the world for saving my butt that night. woke up thursday morning and felt terrible. i literally didnt get out of bed until 3pm  when my mom insisted i get ready because company was coming in an hour. by company she meant my grandma aunts uncles and cousins. i dont see why we have to get dressed up to see our family who knows us so well but i didnt feel like arguing with her so i got dressed. i saw all my cousins who i hadnt seen in forever. i never really see them anymore since theyre all in their 20's and everyone lives here there and everywhere and is in school then is out of school then is back in school then is changing jobs and moving here and everyones just all over the place. it was nice to finally see everyone together for once. that night i ended up just hanging out with the family the whole night since i hadnt seen anyone and i was exhausted from the night before. friday morning i woke up and went shopping with my little sister who i never get the chance to spend time with anymore. then i visited my old job at the salon and bought hair stuff for the family who was begging me. i get 50% off basically everything in the store so my whole family loves when i work there haha. then i picked up my grandma and my mom and the four of us went for mani-pedis. that was definately much needed. after that i stopped by my cousins to see her kitten who is absolutely adorable and then got ready to go to my favorite chinese food place to meet my dads side of the family who didnt come to thanksgiving. i hadnt seen them in almost 4 months so i was happy i got to see them. they came back to the house after and we hung out for a little. then one of my best friends from high school picked me up and we went to my friend lisas house because she was having people over. we had fun. played some games. went on some adventures. it was just like high school again. and now i cant believe its saturday already. its basically my last day home since im leaving tomorrow morning at like 12 for the bus station. this weekend flew by. now i have to go do basically a week's worth of work that i havent been doing since ive been too busy seeing my family and friends. this should be fun

happy thanksgiving!

why do we say happy thanksgiving to begin with? hmm i mean i guess it should be happy. but it has basically just turned into people eating turkey and no one giving thanks for anything really..its an excuse to get the family together to have a huge meal and for kids to come home from college and relatives to fly in from who knows where..and for people like me to have to take 6 hour miserable bus rides home..i officially hate public transportation..and i wish it wasnt impossible to bring a car to the university of maryland or i would bring mine except its so much to pay just to park it and you have to constantly move it for basketball/football games and its just so annoying. my roommate has one and its a huge hassle..so anyway on tuesday i left campus at 2 with olivia to catch a 4 oclock bus..we got there early at 3 so we went to fuddruckers to eat..i had never been there before..it was pretty good..then we went to the bus stop a half hour early to make sure we got seats next to each other..except they told us we had to take different buses..i was so pissed..olivia was going to philly and i was going to new york..ugh i was so mad..so then i had to sit the whole ride by myself and i just basically slept the whole way since i was so bored..and my mom kept calling me every hour to see where i was and waking me up..so annoying! that was a miserabel ride..and then when i got to nyc finally my dad was supposed to pick me up but there was a car on fire on the fdr so he couldnt get through so i was stuck in chinatown where i dont know anyone and no place was open bc it was already 11 at night..so i stood on a street corner for 15 min waiting for my dad to get through..then i finally got home at 12..it was nice to come home after 3 months of being away but everything was different..we got verizon fios so my whole tv was different..we used to have cable..and because of that we got a new internet so i didnt know the username or password for the internet anymore..my dad moved the computer from upstairs in the extra bedroom to downstairs in the family room..and we got a new washer and dryer that i cant figure out how to work so i didnt even feel at home anymore i because everything was so new and different

lazy sundays arent so lazy anymore

im updating twice today since my journal seemed to have slipped my mind this week..i cant even remember all the way back to wednesday now..basically we had alot of drama on the floor..people freaking out.thats always fun..NOT..classes were..classes..long and boring..oh wednesday i actually didnt go to bio because i was so exhausted i came home and slept for 4 hours..i literally slept from 2-6:30 when my friends woke me up to go to dinner..that day was great since i got absolutely nothing accomplished..by the time i got back at 7ish i still had to shower and do my chem lab and chem pre lab which was due by 12 that night along with whatever other homework i had..thursday i got out of class early at 1230..came home and did some work..then walked all the way back to the chemistry building at 2 for office hours with my teacher..and i got there and she told me she had a meeting and to come back another day or wait a minimum of a half hour..it was freezing and snowing outside i was so mad..and i had been planning on going to natalies office hours to work on my paper except with all the excitement in my dorm this week i never got the chance to actually write it..so instead i came home and finished all of my other work.then i worked out ate and sat down to write my paper while multitasking and doing laundry..the laundry room is actually a really good place to write a paper on a thursday night since its quiet and theres barely any people down there..much quieter than my floor..i was able to write my paper in the two hours that it took me to do my laundry so i felt extremely accomplished that i was able to do both at once..i was able to go to bed early that night..early being around 1..and then friday wasnt that exciting..i actually fell asleep in bio on friday..i forced myself to go bc i didnt go wed..and then i just passed out on my notebook the entire class..i literally took notes for 5 minutes before i passed out..that was a complete waste of an hour..that class is just so boring its ridiculous..i came home and took a nap because i was exhausted after taking only a 45 min nap in class..i finally got up and did some homework and then my friends wanted to get ready to go out already..so i got ready and we went to turtle for the night..danced with some creepers..the usual..came back and ordered chinese food..typical friday night..love panda<3..then we woke up and all felt horrible saturday..went to the diner and ate a giant waffle..that was the highlight of my day..by then it was already 2..so we came back to my room and watching forgetting sarah marshall which was the funniest movie ever..i was expecting it to suck and it was hysterical..by then  it was already 5 so we showered and starting to prepare layers for the football game..ive never worn so many layers in my life..i think i wore half of my closet to that game..i was handing out cold weather clothes to my roommate bc shes from miami and barely has any..she said she had never been to a football game where it was cold out before..i was like WHAT?!..i played soccer and softball growing up and there were millions of games where we froze our butts off in the freezing whether in november and in march when the seasons change. ive even played in snow before. i know what its like to be cold. and when your just standing there not even moving your even colder..i forced everyone to wear like 35 layers and no one ended up being cold..the game sucked because we got killed..it was fun for the first quarter until we realized that we werent gonna score a touchdown anytime soon.i cant believe we lost at home. let alone let florida state..a school from down south..beat us in this weather..they should have been the ones freezing their butts off..that frustrated me alot..we left after the third quarter because we obviously werent coming back or winning..and my dad and sister were watching from home and making fun of me because they were warm in my house and i was freezing my butt off in the stadium..we just hung out in the dorm the rest of the night because everyone was too cold/tired to go out after the game ended..some of my friends passed out at like 1130 which is probably the earliest any of them have gone to bed in college..haha..and now i just woke up a little while ago and im trying to get everyone else to get up and go to the diner iwth me since its 1 in the afternoon already and weve accomplished absolutely nothing

mess of a week

this week has been so hectic trying to cram everything in before thanksgiving. i havent even had time to update ive been too busy studying and writing papers and trying to cram in all of my assignments before i leave. im kind of excited to go home now because some of my friends are already home and everyone else is coming home within the next 3 days..its gonna be fun to finally see my friends from high school who i havent seen in forever..i literally havent been home in two months..alot of my friends come home like every two weeks or atleast once a month and everyone went home together columbus day weekend except it was our family weekend that weekend so i couldnt go home bc my parents were coming here..i still have to survive another two days of class before i make it home. one more english class. oh and i should probably finish my paper for that class..one more math class..where i should probably finish the hw for that class..one more chem lecture..where i should probably start the hw for that class..one more bio lecture..where we never get any work just endless readings i havent been doing..and one more chem discussion that i dont have to do anything for =] ..and one more math discussion that i have to go to to hand in my homework..eww..that sounds like so much still to do..i guess im not home free yet like i thought..tonight is going to be entirely consumed by work..as usual..and i have to bring practically all of my books home with me on the bus..that is not going to be fun at all..i have so much homework to do over break its not funny..and when i come back i have two huge tests..im basically going to have thanksgiving day off and thats it..im going to be doing work all during break instead of spending time with my friends and family like i want to..i hate school! bio majors get entirely too much work..all i do is work work work..its terrible..i cant wait until december 18 when all my tests are over and i get a month long winter break where im spending a week in aruba and a week in miami..i cant wait! 

the longest day in the history of the world

i dont think today is ever going to end. its just going to drag on for all of eternity. last night i couldnt go to sleep because the girl that lives next door to me was in the hallway screaming at someone at 2 in the morning right outside my door literally for an hour. i went to bed at 1 so that i could get up for my 8am bio lab the next morning except at 2 i had not fallen asleep yet because she was still out there screaming at her phone. i went into the lounge to discover half my floor was having the same problem and they were all in the lounge. i stayed in there for a half hour and decided if she was still there by the time i got back i was gonna say something to her but thankfully she was gone. so by the time i went into my room at 3 i fell right asleep. so i woke up the next morning on four hours of sleep to go do my wonderful bio lab. atleast we did animal dissections which i find interesting since im a bio major i like all that gross stuff. then we rushed out of bio to study for math. i think i became more confused studying than i was before but everyone was just throwing facts out there because this is supposedly the hardest test of the year so we were all freaking out. i got coffee before the test so i wouldnt fall asleep except i still kept finding myself spacing out because i was so tired. you know its bad when even coffee doesnt help. i took my test and was completely exhausted so i probably did horrible on it but from talking to people after the test i think i did okay. more like i hope i did okay. everyone does so poorly in the class i really hope theres a huge curve at the end which i have a feeling there is going to be. from there i had to go to my last univ class. my teacher brought in pizza and drinks for us which was nice and we made books for children in uganda. my friend molly and i made a book about the colors. we had fun being little kids and making bubble letters and drawing and being creative. its good to exercise your creative side once in awhile. we really dont have the opportunity to do that very much in college whereas in high school we always had stupid projects where the teacher would be like oh creative a colorful title page or something that engaged your sense of creativity. i miss that. anyway after univ i had to go to chem discussion where i just completely lost all my energy and zoned out. i could not focus. atlesat i copied down the problems so i can go over them another time. it was so cold outside when i got outside of class i practically ran home. i was freezing. i could not wait to take a nap. i was so excited to get in my nice comfy, warm bed. i get out of the elevator on my floor and all of a sudden a cop yells at me and goes GET TO YOUR ROOM RIGHT NOW AND STAY THERE. GET WHERE YOU NEED TO BE IMMEDIATELY. i look to my left and theres 5 swat team members on the boys side of my floor.  apparently they were searching for drugs. they tore apart some kids rooms and obviously found some stuff. this was just what i needed when i wanted to take a nap. of course everyones yelling and freaking out. after 15 minutes i was like forget this and i went to sleep because honestly theres nothing anyone could have done and no one was gonna find out any information while the cops were still searching. i woke up an hour later because i couldnt sleep because people kept pounding on my door and screaming in the hallway. people seriously need to grow up. every little thing causes mass hysteria. its starting to get old really fast. were eighteen years old - were adults. we dont need to freak out over everything. so now im sitting in the lounge at 8 trying to get some work done while the rest of my floor continues to talk about what happened three hours ago. im going to go hide on a corner and do my homework and put a sign on me thats says DO NOT DISTURB. 

another weekend lost

once again i awoke this morning to realize that it was already 1:30 and that i had gotten absolutely nothing accomplished. today i have to read and outline chapter 4 in my chem textbook, do my chem homework, study for my math test on tuesday, do my bio pre-lab, write my univ journal, complete my univ final, write my english paper, do a week's worth of bio readings, and oh yeah i guess update my journal? well atleast im getting one thing accomplished today. luckily a couple of these assignments arent due tomorrow or i would be in trouble. i think im going to save all my bio readings for my 5 hour busride home next tuesday for thanksgiving weekend. atleast ill have something to do on the bus. i probably should have gotten some of this work done earlier but i just had no time this weekend..friday i got back from class and went straight to the gym. i rushed to get ready because we had to leave by 6 to go to my friend on my floors house for friday night shabbat dinner. her family has shabbat dinner every friday - unlike mine - since im only half a jew so my friends decided that we would come one week to meet her family. we drove the half hour to potomac, maryland and only got lost like 18 times on the way. we finally made it to her grandparents house where dinner was and it was so nice to have good food! her family was extremely friendly and nice. i loved them. and it turns out that her uncle grew up ten minutes away from where i live in new york. it was so weird that it's such a small world. he went to the same high school my mom went to. so after a nice homemade meal we headed back to campus - got lost and ended up in virginia - then eventually somehow made it back to maryland. when we got back to campus we got ready to go out and went to a phi si party which was lame and there was a random old man there which was creepy. so we left and went to turtle. we came back from turtle and my friend got in a fight with some random kid on the bus because he told her she wasnt allowed to sing on the bus. she actually tried to beat him up and my other friend was holding her back. we had to get off the bus so she would stop freaking out. low and behold when we go to sit where we usually sit at the football game the next day, whose sitting in the row behind us? that same kid. and it turns out - i know him from home. we have mutual friends and he hangs out with my boyfriend's friends from high school. wonderful! so of course i make friends with the kid that my friend tried to beat up. the football game was absolutely ridiculous. one of the best football game's ive ever seen. i was so happy we beat unc. especially because they rejected me haha. no but seriously it was an awesome game and we actually stayed for the whole thing for once. we got soaked but stayed anyway. then we came back and ordered food since the diner was closed! we ordered from jungle grill - good food i would recommend trying it and they deliver to the dorms which is nice. so after we got dinner at 9 we got ready and went out. my roommate and i went to the mark to meet up with some of her friends from home so naturally i ran into my boyfriends cousin and some of his friends from high school. then i ran into my camp friend who doesnt even go here that i havent seen in 5 years. yes last night was an interesting one to say the least. and now im sitting here babbling not doing any of my other work so im gonna have to end this one! 

thursday already?

this week has absolutely flown by. maybe its because the whole thing dragged on in one long insomniatic rage since i apparently dont have time to sleep anymore. i think im actually becoming nocturnal. i sleep during the day and stay up late at night then wake up early for class - its an absolutely horrific habit that i wouldnt recommend anyone try. i have so much work and no time to do it because of my weird sleeping habits. last night i stayed up until 3am doing a chem lab with two of my friends because it was so hard no one could do it alone. of course i was busy until like 10 which was when we started. it actually took us 5 hours to complete. i figured we could finish it off by like one and i could get to sleep at a semi-normal hour since afterall, our chem lab is at 8am the next morning. but noooooo it had to be a five hour long chem lab that was absolutely impossible. im starting to hate these labs. i used to not mind them because they didnt take that much time and i usually got fairly good grades on them. now as the weeks go by my grades seem to keep plummetting and the difficulty of the labs seem to increase to no end. i cant wait to do this week's and the week afters. those will probably take whole days to complete. so when we finally finished at 3, my roommate and my friend across the hall were still awake. why, i dont know? i dont know why anyone would want to willingly be awake at 3am but i think my roommate was trying to do some sort of homework and my friend doesnt have class until 1. i convinced them that we needed to go to sleep and they said no but i went to sleep anyway and left them awake. i woke up the next morning at 7, slept walked through chem lab - except i actually understood it for once - shockingly. then i went to math where we learned someone completely useless. my teacher basically told us its completely useless, we wont be tested on it, and you need a calculator to do it(calculators are forbidden in this class). i dont know why i even bothered going to class. he said we would review for the test at the end except he only left himself 10 minutes at the end to review so going to class today was basically pointless and i wish i would have known because i would have came home and slept. instead i got home at 12:30ish and fell asleep at 1 and i just woke up now at 4:45 so i slept the entire day away and got nothing done - which means i'm going to be up late tonight again doing work because i wont be able to fall asleep until late. this is a terrible cycle that i need to break or i will never get anything done! 

exhaustion is kicking in

today seems like its never going to end. my sleeping pattern is so off i cant sleep anymore. going out and coming home at 3am and waking up at 9am is not a good lifestyle. last night i tried to go to bed at like 1:30 and i couldnt fall asleep until 3am because im getting so used to getting home late and going to bed late. im never going to be able to get sleep again. tomorrow is one of my best friend's on my floor's birthday so were going out tomorrow night which means its gonna be another 3am bedtime night. unfortunately its always nights before english that we end up going out. and i barely ever go out during the week - the only other time i went out during the week was halloween. i thought that was a legitimate reason to go out on a school night. and i cant say no to going out for my best friend's birthday, especially when all my other friends are going with no problem. i dont know why im so exhausted all the time. i have no room in my schedule for naps either except for thursdays, but then i end up sleeping the whole day away. i cant seem to figure out this whole college routine thing. tonight im going to try to go to bed early except liza wants me to stay up until 12 because its her birthday except i have to wake up at 715 for my bio lab in the morning. im always exhausted during my bio and chem labs because theyre both at 8am. i feel bad i can never pay attention for 3 hours but im just so exhausted and those classes seem to drag on forever. 

and now im procrastinating from doing homework by blabbing on and on in this thing. this reminds me of middle school when i kept a livejournal that detailed everything in my life. but that was back before half of the things we do is illegal and i could actually write about the intricacies of my life without getting arrested. haha. oh how life was so much simpler then! ugh okay i need to stop procrastinating and actually do work..and then decorate lizas room for her birthday and wrap her present and make her a card and ahh i have so much to do! 

home sweet home

im finally back in college park after a long eventful weekend. the last time i updated this i was in warm, sunny miami, florida. now im back in slightly colder, not as fabulous college park. no offense i absolutely love college park, but its just not florida. theres no beaches within 15 minutes of campus and its not 80 and sunny everyday. i am so jealous of everyone that gets to be warm everyday, meanwhile, we get to freeze over the winter. i decided that im moving to florida when im older. hands down. i despise cold weather so it is the perfect place for me. i dont think i could ever get tired of going to the beach. ever. i dont understand how everyone in college doesnt go every weekend because that is exactly what i would do. every saturday and sunday whenever i woke up i would just drive to the beach. okay well maybe not every because theres obviously the football games to go to and a pool right on campus but i would definately go alot more than my boyfriend and his friends do. they're so lucky to have that all year round! i mean im sure miami sucks when its raining and when they get hurricanes but that's only so often. im sure its nice to have a break from the heat and the sun every once in awhile. my roommate lives in miami and i am so jealous of her! i cant wait to go visit her over winter break! me and three of the other girls from my floor are going to live with her for a week and just go to the beach and the grove all week and its going to be ridiculously awesome. i can not wait for winter break just for that sole purpose. 

aside from my ranting about how much i loved miami, last night we went to the grove which is like our route one again and everything was so pretty and it was so much fun. we controlled the jukebox at one of the bars the whole night so we just sang random songs obnoxiously loudly and off key. its such a small world that one of my boyfriends friends went to high school with one of my best friends on my floor so we found that hysterical and laughed about it. we finally went back to campus at like 2 and didnt make it to bed until 3. robbie and i had to wake up at 6:45 to catch my flight at 8 so that was a terrible morning.

my awesome weekend

so right now i am in gorgeous miami, florida at the university of miami visiting my amazing boyfriend. =) thursday night i ventured to the airport all by myself. this was the first time ive ever flown by myself. i feel so mature and grown up now that i can travel by myself. i took the bus and the metro all by myself all the way to DCA. i was able to find the terminal all by myself! when i landed in miami my boyfriend picked me up except i couldnt find him because the airport is huge! theres so many levels and millions of gates. we got back to his dorm room and i got to meet all of his friends from school for the first time. most of them live far from home so ive never met them before. they all turned out to be a really good group of guys who i like alot. thursday night we went out to the grove which is basically the equivalent of their "route one" except its alot bigger and its definately alot easier to get lost. also you have to take a cab or the "drunk bus" as they call it. its really annoying though miami is not very nice to visitors. visiters can not get on the drunk bus because they dont have a miami id. they also can not eat in the dining halls because they do not have a miami id. at maryland anyone can get on the buses and you can pay in the dining hall with a credit card or just put everything on one person's swipe. anyway the grove was fun. miami has a really fun nightlife. friday we slept until 3pm because we got back late the night before. when we finally got out of bed we went to the pool except it wasnt that sunny so we basically slept next to the pool. i was exhausted from traveling. friday night apparently no one goes out in miami because theyre recoverin from thursday night so i made robbie take me out to dinner. we walked to fridays which is pretty close to campus. it was nice to finally spend some one on one time with him after not seeing him for a month. after that we went to the movies with robbies friends. we saw role models. absolutely hysterical. go see it! it was so funny. i love sean william scott and i just discovered that i love paul rudd. they were hysterical together. by the time we got back from the movie it was already 12:30 so we decided to just hang out for the night. we went to bed by 2ish and we woke up at 11 to head to the beach today. of course by the time we went out for breakfast and drove the 20 min to the beach it was already almost 1pm. it was absolutely gorgeous at the beach. we went to the bay so the water was calm and there were palm trees everywhere. ugh it was so pretty i want to live here. one of the frats was having a party on the beach. thats absolutely ridiculous that they get to party on the beach! im so jealous! we came home from the beach at like 5 because the sun was already starting to set. i ate in the dining hall for the first time because i borrowed his roommates miami id. now were back at his dorm and i actually did all of my math homework and now im writing in my journal while watching all the college football games. i havent watched this much college football since ive gotten to college. we watched penn state lose which was an awesome game. then we watched alabama win in OT. and now wer watching texas tech and im hoping we'll get out of here before this game ends. i think were going back into the drove tonight which should be fun!

wednesday is finally over

this has been the longest week of my life! i just wanted to get today over with. i had a huge bio test on monday and then a huge chem test today. im hoping that i did okay on both of them but im nervous because everyone seems to fail and then they "curve" it. just for once i would like to get a good grade on one test! is that really so much to ask for. aside from my henious tests, i dont know if thats the right word there but i had my conference with natalie today. i was surprised it was so positive. i was worried after not getting as good a grade as i would have liked on my first paper but she reassured me that i was doing just fine. hopefully thats another weight off my shoulders. im just getting sick of all of this work. it seems like all of my teachers got together and plotted against me and were like okay were going to give all the students all the work this week and then nothing next week. its nice that i can go to miami and have fun this weekend and not have to worry about work, but this past week i was on overload. i was angry i didnt have as much time as i would have liked to work on my english paper because i had so much other work/projects/studying to do. on top of that it was one of my best friends on my floor's birthday so the night before my bio exam we went out to dc to go out to dinner which took over 3 hours so i lost out on valuable studying time. i felt bad it was her birthday i couldnt say no. then as if things couldnt get any worse, my chem test was the day after the election! obviously my whole floor was loud and yelling and my family was calling and my friends from home were calling. apparently in new york city there was massive screaming and partying in the streets. i wish i was there! it must have been so cool. my best friend from home called and said the cops were baracading the roads because there was so many people running in the streets after the announced obama won. i was a big obama fan so i was pretty happy myself =] i decided to celebrate for awhile then ended up staying up until 2am studying. now its about time i catch up on some sleep!

just a day..just an ordinary day

today was just another ordinary day at college park. i dont really have anything exciting to write about except for the fact that i cant wait to go to miami this weekend! im leaving thursday after my classes to visit my long lost boyfriend for the weekend. he goes to umiami and i havent seen him since he came to visit me a month ago. im so excited to finally spend time with him. were going to the beach friday. while i should be in class hehe. oh well i figured since we dont get any days off all year i can take one day off to go away for the weekend. english is cancelled in the morning and then im only missing bio which i never pay attention in anyway and one class of chemistry which ill probably have to just get the notes from someone. overall a day at the beach is worth missing one chem class. i cant wait to be in the warm sand and going in the ocean! ahh im so excited. i miss summer and the beach so much. but anyway friday night were going out to dinner. i dont know where yet i dont really care ill just be happy to be in the warm weather. saturday ill probably lay out by the pool while the boyfriend watches football all day. maybe ill drag him with me anyway hehe. then saturday night we might go out in south beach or the grove depending on whats easier. probably the grove since apparently south beach is far away. this is the first time im visiting robbie at school so im excited to finally see his campus. i heard its absolutely gorgeous and theres a big lake in the middle of it. instead of having a mall he has a lake. how is that fair? well atleast our mall is pretty. alot of our friend's schools are absolutely hideous. our campus is so pretty! but he insists his is better and its hard to argue with 90 degree weather, palm trees, and a giant lake. this week feels like its going to drag on forever because i cant wait for thursday! atleast one day is already over. i had a bio test today. thank god that's over. now i just have to get through my chem test and my week is basically over. wednesday better come soon! 

sundayy

another lazy sunday - well not for me. i was up early this morning at 9am after going to bed at 3am. i was good and stayed in last night and did my work since i knew that i would get nothing accomplished today. my friends went out though and came home at 2 just as i was heading to sleep so of course i had to stay up with them for a little. alot of them were refusing to go to sleep. i wonder why. haha. they were all in rare form to say the least. i finally got to sleep only to wake up in the middle of the night to turn my clocks back because i was paranoid i wouldnt wake up for softball in the morning. i kept waking up to look at the time. waking up at 9 was nice since for previous tournaments we had to get up at 7. the games were fun. we played navy who was REALLY good. they were all jacked and huge muscular girls who were quite intimidating. we found out that they dont have a varsity team so everyone whose really into softball plays on the club team so theyre alot better than us. i DHed the first game and we played comeptitively. i walked on four straight pitches my first at bat. i was so mad. i hate walking without even getting in a swing. i was surprised their pitchers werent very good. i had a single my second at bat. we scored alot of runs but we ended up losing. the second game i didnt play in. we wound up getting mercied anyway so i was kind of happy i didnt playin that one. i hate losing. the third game i played third. got walked had a hit grounded out and flied out. but my last at bat was special to say the least. it was bottom of the 8th with one out and bases loaded down by one. all i needed to do was get a hit. of course i hit a long fly ball but the outfielders were playing deep and she caught it. the runner on third tagged up and scored and the runner on second ran to third. so it was first and third with the ball still in right field. the girl on first took off for second to distract the fielders from the runner on third. she dove into second under the tag and pummeled the fielder allowing the runner on third to score and we wont the game. it was the most ridiculous game of my life. it was hysterical how we won. i couldnt  believe we won. it was just such weird circumstances. i was so happy though we beat navy atleast in one game. it sucks losing three in a row. terrible terrible terrible. atleast now im in a good mood even though i have to go study for my bio test for the next 5 hours. joy.

le weekend

halloween is by far my favorite holiday. theres tons of candy. yum. and you get to dress up and pretend to be something your not. i think its so funny to see people dressed up in things they can never really be. you can never really be tony the tiger, or jesus, or i actually say someone dressed up as a "douchebag". he labeled himself douche and was wearing a bag. why you would ever want to be that i dont know but i just thought that was funny. if you think about what some people pick to be its like why would you ever want to be that? last year i was a surgeon because i actually want to be one when i get older. everyone was like what? you actually want to be a surgeon? i was like um yeah thats kind of my goal in life. my roommate was a taxi driver. her costume was so cute and everyone loved it but who aspires to be a taxi driver? obviously she doesnt really want to be one. shes not here to fulfill her education to become a taxi driver. i guess its all for fun anyway. and i love how in college halloween is a full weekend. its not just a one day thing - it an entire weekend affair. we went to a huge party at KA thurs night, then went to delta sig last night. and were probably going somewhere else which we'll find randomly tonight. last night was hysterical. as halloween usually is. everyone was dressed up so funny. im impressed alot of the boys went all out. in high school my guy friends never dressed up. none of them were brave enough to. it was always the girls that dressed up and took full advantage of the halloween. like the means girls quote says "halloween is the one night of the year a girl can dress like a slut and no one can say anything about it" or something along those lines. everyone took full advantage of that last night. definately. haha. 

laundary is evil

im sitting in my laundry room right now. i just put up four loads. i dont know if theres anything in the world i hate more than laundry and ive only been doing it for two months. theres no way i can do this the rest of my life. or for a family for that matter. its just so boring. atleast while im waiting for the next hour for everything to dry i can get some of my work done. thats the only good part about laundary. its forcing me to do my homework. if not i would die of sheer boredom from waiting here in this dark, dreary room. ive tried going back up to my room while i was waiting for the dryer to stop but evil people mess with my laundary. once someone took my clothes out of the dryer when they had only been in there for like 15 minutes because they wanted to use it. that is downright wrong. seriously wait for the dryer like everyone else. you cant steal a dryer - it's a little obvious that you stole it. i kind of new that there was no way possible for my 60 minute dryer to be done in twenty minutes. and then if you're not there exactly when your laundry finishes - people just pull it out of the machine for you like their doing you a favor. no, losing half of my clothes is not doing me a favor. i only have so many clothes with me at college so i would like to keep all of them if possible. some people just forget that their laundry is there entirely. my roommate left hers there for four days. she was like where did all my clothes go? who keeps stealing my clothes?! she thought someone actually stole them. well finally someone suggested why doesnt she check the laundary room? low and behold there was a bag with all of her missing clothes in them. and i love the guys that are afraid to touch the girls clothes like they think its "wrong" or something. once i had a guy ask me to remove the clothes from one of the dryers so he could use it because he didnt want to touch girls clothes. i was like seriously? how old are you? if you want the dryer you can take the clothes out. he freaked out like i was telling him something totally absurd. ugh laundry is such a nuisance. i hope i dont have to do any more laundry for another month!

cooooold

okay i was complaining about the weather before, except now its absolutely freezing. wind is not my friend. wind is evil. wind gets us all sick and freezes our toes. wind is so annoying its unbelievable. walking from class to class is now a royal pain. before i didnt mind all the walking at all. now that its disgustingly cold every morning its becoming more and more painful. i think once it snows i might just stop going to class since im probably going to end up getting sick. i always get sick once it starts snowing. i hate it. the first snow or two is fun and after that its just miserable. 

im waiting for my chemistry class to start and im contemplating not going to bio because i dont want to walk in the cold. i want to run back to my dorm which is also like 1000 miles away from all of my classes so my walk home is going to be terrible too. i dont even want to go to the gym anymore because the weather is just that horrible that i dont want to go outside. im not even that far away from the gym but its pointless to get bundled up to walk to the gym and then go inside and sweat and carry around all your layers of clothes. ugh i hate winter so much!

 the wind whistling in our lounge last night was downright scary. i was trying to study/ work on my english paper and all i heard was the wind whistling. i guess its because im on the sixth floor which is pretty high up. i cant imagine what its like on the eighth floor. no one else could concentrate on their work in the lounge either. i went back into my room but i could still hear the wind. my room is like 100 degrees for some reason and we cant open the window because then we hear the wind all night and we start to freeze. we just cant win with this weather game. 

boredom

so i just got out of bio lab an hour early. this was a good thing since i was falling asleep. we did some weird experiment where we had to throw cards at the other team and put our two cards together and we get points and lost points depending on which card we picked. we were supposed to strategize but my team randomly picked cards and we ended up winning. that was entertaining for the first round but then after we did it 8 times we were kind of like enough is enough. then when we were done with that we answered question then had to watch a video about meerkats. im sorry but meerkats are cute but their lives are just not that interesting. it would have been one thing if it was a 5 minute video but it was like a 30 minute detailed video on the intricacies of meerkat life. i decided i want a pet meerkat. except i would have to get a colony of them. and i dont think i could house 20 meerkats. plus they live in africa so i dont think they could survive up here. maybe ill move to africa when im older. just kidding. ive always wanted some strange weird pet that no one else has. i think eventually im going to get a toucan. ive always wanted one since the pet store near my house has always had one. that can be my strange and interesting pet. now im just babbling on because im extremely bored. im sitting in the armory waiting for my math class to start in another 15 minutes. thats the problem when classes get out at different times - you dont know where to go or what to do. i already got coffee for once before class so i couldnt even stop to get coffee or food. the rest of my day is not going to be fun. i have uNIV100, then chem discussion, softball practice, and RHA. ill be home by 9 tonight if im lucky. and i have to miss 90210! im not sure if its new. i hope its not.

uh oh

so for some reason for the past 6 days i forgot about my blog. so i guess im posting everyday this week to make up for it. thats really weird i have no idea why i randomly forgot about it. i guess because i was so busy this weekend! friday night one of my friends from home came to visit and ended up sleeping over. saturday was the homecoming game. obviously slept until like 12 then woke up and didnt feel like moving. we ended up being late to the football game because we just didnt feel like moving. my other friend ilana came saturday morning from her school. she goes to udel. my friend emily, the one who was here friday night, left saturday morning so they just missed each other by a half hour. it was kind of ironic since they both know each other. so i took ilana to the homecoming game. it was nice to finally see someone from home! they were the first of my friends to come visit because im so far from home. im the farthest south out of all of my friends. which is sad because im not even very far down south at all. everyone else went up north to the state schools in new york. after the game i went out to eat with ilanas cousin whose a sophomore here and her friend. we discovered a new food place called the jungle. its right off campus and has really good food. we came back and got ready as fast as possible. we met her cousin at the knox towers at some pre game that was really awkward because we didnt know anyone there. then we decided to just go to route one. aka turtle. we had fun. danced. lost all my friends. typical. ilana and i found her friends from delaware who she came with and ended up dancing with them since i lost all my friends to boys. eventually we found each other when turtle closed and we basically got kicked out. we went back to the dorms and sat in the lounge and ate. as usual. its clearly what we do best. then went to sleep and didnt realize i didnt set my alarm to get up for softball in the morning. my friend knocked on my door asking if i was ready to go and i was still in bed. i felt bad making her and everyone wait for me because i knew there was no way i was getting there in time so i just said i was sick since i felt like shit to begin with. and i had to write a paper. and i never get any sleep ugh. why is waking up early so hard in college. and im always sick! so annoying. 

booo being sick

being sick at college is terrible. obviously the first day it gets cold out i would get sick. my roommate and i both strangely came down with fevers sunday night, so we were both miserable. we loaded up on cold meds and whatever else we could find and attempted to pass out early. but of course everyone was loud in the hallway and screaming and yelling and what not. and obviously it was our best friends who were making the most noise so we felt bad yelling at them. surprisingly i felt better when i woke up monday morning so i went to all my classes and then even went to the gym. unfortunately then i wound up staying up until 3am completing all of the homework that i couldnt finish sunday night because i was sick - then i had to wake up at 7am for my bio lab this morning. it was terrible. four hours of sleep is the worst idea ever. today i had a full day of classes 8am through 420 then had to go to softball then my chem review. awful! and i was looking forward to relaxing and watching 90210 tonight..but it wasnt even new! im so angry we all sat down to watch and were really excited and it was a repeat! it was so depressing. i came home and was so exhausted i decided im boycotting homework tonight and just going to sleep. tomorrow is going to be dedicated to studying for my chemistry. i have a lab report, pre lab, and midterm thursday so my life is going to be chemistry tomorrow. then thursday is going to be dedicated to writing my english rough draft since ive barely started and finishing all of my bio assignments that are due friday. friday is all of my other homework that is due monday. ugh and its homecoming weekend so two of my best friends from home are coming!  i cant wait to see them! and i have a softball tournament away at loyola sunday so i have no time to get anything done! this is going to be a tricky weekend trying to get everything done. im going to have to be super efficient the rest of this week. this should be interesting.

weekend recap

so this weekend was entertaining to say the least. thursday night was a complete bust. some kid called my friend to tell us to come to an aepi party so we hop on the orange bus and get to route one. we call him and he tells us he doesnt know where the party is. we aimlessly walk around for fifteen minutes until were like forget this call him again. he didnt answer. so we think he lied and there really was no party he just wanted to see my friend haha. so we went back to the dorm for another uneventful night. friday night was much better however. we headed out intending to go to the wrestling party - except that turned out to be saturday night not friday. we stumbled upon a cowboys and indians party at sig nu. you were supposed to have tickets but your friend knew someone inside so we all got in. it was pretty awesome. there was a blacklight and music and you know the rest. there was even a huge thing of hay against the wall which we danced on top of. oh and cant forget about my roommate getting on the bar and dancing while she was completely sober. gotta love her. at one point the fire alarm went off and i was split up from all the girls. i found one of the guys that lives on my floor and we ran outside. all of a sudden you see hundreds of kids running out of the house. so i call my friends to make sure they got out - and theyre like nah were not leaving were staying inside. so heaven forbid there really was a fire my genious friends would have been inside dancing. luckily it was a false alarm and it happened two more times that night. its all good. i ended up having a heart to heart with the guy from my floor because were both from new york so it was pretty entertaining. were the only ones who call dominoes and say "hi can i get a pie?" and they respond with "what? we dont make pies here!" and we both miss new york bagels..alot..the bagels just arent the same here..so eventually we found my friends again..and we added some random boys to the group. typical. we made it home at about maybe 3am after a random stop to cvs. long night. woke up saturday morning at 1130 just in time for the football game. tailgating was not an option then. my friend and i decided we wanted to go to the diner to get food first since we felt terrible and we wound up not making it until the third quarter when my friends had already left. we came back to the dorm and collapsed and slept for a few hours until we realized we had to race to the diner if we wanted to eat since it was already 645. i didnt go out saturday night since i had to wake up at 7am this morning. my friends got ready and i curled my friends hair and it stayed and it looked so good and i was so proud of myself haha. working in a salon finally paid off. so as my friends went out to party, i watched the rays vs boston game and was miserable the whole night after boston won. tried to do my work and my laundary but that didnt go very well. i kinda half assed everything because i was so tired. i went to sleep at like 2ish except then my roommate and my friends came back at 3 and woke me up so i wound up staying up until 4am. i had to wake up at 7am for softball. i played away at delaware today. it was FREEZING out and i was absolutely miserable. i got hit 3 times in my 6 at bats today. i had a 5/6 obp even though i got hbp 3 times and ran out a strikeout once and then finally got a hit. club softball is very entertaining. nothing like travel or varsity haha. and now im back at campus. with a horrible cold and im pretty sure i have a fever. and i have a ridiculous amount of work to get done. great i cant wait for tonight. its gonna be so much fun. and if the rays lose again tonight. things are going to be UGLY.

weekenddd finally

so its 5:30 and i just got back from class an hour ago. i had so many review sessions today it was ridiculous! i have my first chem lab midterm next week so i went to a review for it today and it sounds so hard. i heard that everyone bombs it and theres a huge curve because its so hard. no one understands the concepts were learning im convinced. everyone gets how to do the labs but when you get down to the molecular concepts everyone is completely lost. and ive just realized that im failing biology. great. but i have a feeling im not doing that horrible compared to the whole class so im not all that worried yet. whatever. im doing all my work. just one test completely killed my grade. and i need to learn how to write a lab report. theyre so hard! i already dont want to write it and i havent even started yet. researching selenestrum is not exactly my idea of fun. i also have to write this english paper. atleast the topic im writing about im interested in so its not too torturous. im hoping to find out some interesting information. i also hope that my research topic isnt too farfetched from my original paper. i guess ill have to go to office hours. 

thank goodness the weekend is finally here. im so sick of doing work even though saturday night i have to stay in to do work because i have a club softball tournament sunday and i have no time to get anything done! anyway im going to maryland madness tonight which im hoping will be fun. im hearing mixed things. everyone is telling me that i have to go but that its not that much fun. i dont understand why i have to go if its not fun but whatever my friends want to go so i figured i would go anyway. afterword we'll probably head down to the frats. ive heard of some smaller parties going on tonight so i guess we'll head there. unfortunately we have to wake up early tomorrow for the football game. i dont know if im gonna make it to any of the tailgates. i might just sleep until kickoff. 12 is entirely too early on a saturday! what happened to all of these 4pm and night games? i like the sound of those much better. then i can sleep until my usual 2pm..tailgate..and go. i hope theres some later scheduled games coming up soon. ill have to check the schedule. i also hope i have time for a nap or something saturday after the game or im going to be extremely cranky saturday night. i have so much work to get done! and for some reason everything is due next tuesday. i have like 5 assignments due its really weird. and i still have to get a halloween costume! ah i cant even remember to get everything done!

schedules

oh my goodness. making your own schedule is so hard. in high school my guidance counselor always did it for us. the computer seemed to know everything and there was a significant number of less classes to chose from and what periods they were offered. now that im off in college im a big girl now and i can make my own schedule. so i thought before i looked at that list. getting all of my labs and discussions to fit into a schedule that wont drive me crazy is ridiculously harder than i thought. i want to take spanish next semester since i want to minor in it and i keep hearing all of these scary rumors that no one ever gets into the spanish classes they want to take and it is impossible to get into enough classes. another thing im afraid of is that im going to have to wake up at 8am everyday in order to take the classes i want. i have come to realize that my body simply does not function properly this early in the morning and taking two 8am labs this semester was not the greatest of my ideas. the schedule i planned for myself on paper looks good - but getting into all of these classes is going to be a challenge. i managed to only take one 8am class this semester if i can make this schedule work and the other days i dont start until 11. this would be beneficial because i function better in the afternoons. i am also able to be done with clases by 3 everyday so i can leave time to workout and for my sports and extracurricular activities, etc. i want to be able to have some sort of a life. atleast next semester im getting 16 credits taking only 4 classes because all of my labs count as credits. i guess that works out to benefit me. im hoping that with my 9 credits from high school and 2 extra ones that im taking this year that after next year i will be able to be a full semester ahead. this way some semesters i can take three 4 credit classes instead of taking atleast 4 classes every semester. im a bio major and the labs get extremely time consuming so im hoping to knock these out now along with my CORES that way junior and senior year i can focus on the harder classes. im just so paranoid about not getting into the classes that i need/want to take. i cant wait until this is all over!

Rhetorical Analysis #2

http://web.ebscohost.com/ehost/detail?vid=1&hid=103&sid=0d6ad56a-4033-498a-8b4e-6627a3b2636f%40sessionmgr109&bdata=JmxvZ2lucGFnZT1Mb2dpbi5hc3Amc2l0ZT1laG9zdC1saXZl#db=hch&AN=11301471

Although this article essentially disagrees with what I want to argue, (that sports are healthy for women), it is important to see both sides of the issue and this article particularly caught my eye. The article comes from a science journal so it uses cold, hard facts to prove it’s point. This article is written in a grand style, as indicated by Engagements with Rhetoric. It uses scientific terms, such as amenorrhea and osteoporosis to explain negative impacts that sports have on girls. These terms indicate a sophisticated style of language and that the article is written for a well-educated audience, particularly orthopaedic nurses. The article uses statistical analysis as solid facts to persuade readers.

            This text focuses mainly on the logos appeal. It is filled with facts, both historical and statistical, that make people stop to think. For example, the article states that the number of female athletes increased from 294,000 to 2.6 million in 1997 after Title IX was implemented.  It was also shocking to see the statistics that 32% of college females athletes are reported to have some sort of eating disorder. These facts and statistics draw the reader in and make them curious to know more information. There is a slight degree of pathos used in the conclusion of this article. The article focuses on how negative sports are on females and then it suddenly switches to speak about how it can be fixed with the help of orthopaedic professionals. It says that it is their job to screen and help female athletes with these diseases. It uses the emotional appeal that the audience can help girls cope with and avoid these problems.

            This article uses the five stasis to persuade the audience. It defines such terms as amenorrhea and osteoporosis, as well as giving examples of eating disorders. The article states that sports are the cause of all of these problems in women. It evaluates that these causes are bad and have a negative impact on women’s bodies. The action they believe should be taken is that of orthopaedic doctors and nurses who should be well prepared to deal with this increasingly more popular problem. The jurisdiction in this piece is tricky because the article supports Title IX and that women deserve equal opportunities; however, it indirectly cautions that Title IX could be causing women to be more susceptible to eating disorders. 

cursed

well im making this one short because blogger just deleted the entire novel i just wrote..

basically life is sucking right now. i never want to go home again. all these terrible things keep happening. it all started three months ago, july 12th when my boyfriend, robbie's, friend brandon was killed in a car accident. he wasnt wearing a seatbelt in a car moving upwards of 90mph that flipped over. the 3 month anniversary of his death was yesterday. yesterday morning robbie texted me to tell me that his other friend brandon's dad died in a motorcycle accident earlier in the morning. he was not particularly close with this brandon but they had grown up together and hung out occasionally. to make matters worse, brandon's best friend nick is studying abroad in europe and his family doesnt want to tell him that brandon's dad died because they dont want him to feel compelled to come home for the funeral, which he obviously would want to do. this is such a horrible situation in itself. on top of that another of robbie's friend's dads was just diagnosed with lung cancer. robbie was upset by all of this but theres nothing he can really do since hes in florida at school. as if that wasnt enough horrible events for one day, late that night he receives a call that his cousin was in a head on collision and was rushed to the hospital. thankfully he was okay and he returned home this morning. the doctors told him he was lucky he was wearing his seatbelt or he wouldn't be alive right now. a creepy chill ran through my spine when he said that. i knew it was the three month anniversary of brandon's death. perhaps he was his guardian angel. thats a good way of thinking of a terrible situation. im afraid to go home now, bad things are happening to everyone i know. i think my town is cursed. robbie and i went to different high schools and were in different grades even though we live in the same town and have completely different groups of friends. however, we have both had our fair share of horrible instances happening to those we love the most. my dad graduated from my high school thirty years earlier and he said the same thing happened when he was in school. many of his friends died in weird ways at young ages. i really think our town is cursed when it comes to these matters. we have experienced more horrible things in the last four months since we graduated than we did in the past four years of high school. 

family weekend

friday finally came and my family is here for the weekend. my mom, dad, and little sister all came to visit. my little sister carly is twelve and shes staying with me tonight and all day tomorrow. tonight they came after my last class at 3. we went out to eat at the diner and then to some physics is phun thing because we thought it would be fun. it was interesting but it was more like a physics lecture than a "fun" thing to do. i was just glad my parents could finally see how hard my classes are so now maybe theyll understand why i dont get straight a's anymore. i doubt it. my parents decided they were tired after the show even though it was only seven but they had drove four hours to come down here so they went back to the hotel. carly and i went back to my room and i blew up the blowup bed in my room for her to sleep on tonight and we caught the end of the phillies game. booo the dodgers need to step it up. they cant swept! what is this?! now were watching the boston v rays game. lets goooo rays! i hope they win it all. obviously baseball is big in my family. now were heading to the terp zone to play some pool and maybe go bowling. theres not much else to do with a twelve year old at college park. the bars are out, fe is out, the frats are out, along with any other drinking location. its kind of sad thats all we do. i never really thought of it that way. the rest of the weekend is pretty jam packed though. were having lunch on mckeldin mall tomorrow, which im guessing is going to be about when we wake up in the morning. then i have two club softball games. then my parents want to take me out to dinner - finally i get the chance to eat some real food! then my mom decided she wants to go to that circus thing on campus tomorrow night with our family friends whose son goes here so i guess im stuck going to that. im hoping tomorrow night i atleast get a chance to go out with my friends when i come home from that.sunday were going to brunch at adels then watching the girls soccer game. my sister is obsessed with soccer and wants to play in college so shes really excited to see the game. after that i think theyre going to head home and i wont see them until thanksgiving. oh well. im perfectly content with staying in college park for the rest of my life. 

brrrr its cold outside

fall is in the air and i am not a big fan at all. although i might be from new york, i am NOT a cold weather person. i was hoping it wouldnt get as cold in maryland as it does in new york but i fear that i am under a misconception. the mornings are getting cold! atleast its been warm all through september and into the beginning of november. wow its almost mid november already - i didn't even realize it. if only it could stay warm all year round that would be amazing. i am absolutely dreading my walks to english in susquehana in the freezing cold of december. i live in easton which is literally the farthest end of campus. walking is going to be horrible! as long as its not snowing. i was told that in maryland we get alot of black ice and professors cancel classes alot because the roads are so slippery. im hoping that people werent exagerating and this is actually true. that would be really nice because i guarantee that one day i fall on black ice. that would happen to me. im gonna have to get some real boots other than uggs haha. im so used to running from my car into my high school. im not used to walking in the cold at all. in the winter i would just wear a sweatshirt and sweatpants everyday and not worry about freezing in the cold. now im going to have to wear layers when i trek a mile to class in the freezing cold. i should probably invest in some gloves, a hat, scarf, and all that good stuff. im going to be so upset when i have to put my flipflops away for the winter =[ ..and my shorts and bathing suits and tank tops. this is so depressing. going out is going to be so annoying in the cold. what do we do with our jackets when we go out? most likely everyone will lose theirs. i was told you need to have a "Bar jacket" which is basically an old, disgusting jacket that you dont care if you lose or ruin or spill alcohol on..luckily i talked my mom into buying me a new northface so i guess thats what my old one will serve as this winter until i lose it. i cant imagine for the rude awakening all of my friends from miami are going to be in when it gets cold out. they think the world is ending if its 55 degrees in florida. i cant wait until its like -10 and i can make fun of them. my roommates from miami and she doesnt even own a pair of uggs! in new york thats completely unheard of. literally every single person i know has atleast one pair. she doesnt even have any winter clothes its so funny. she has like one sweatshirt and one pair or sweatpants..her parents are coming this weekend and bringing her all the warm clothes she has and taking her shopping. i should probably go shopping too or im going to freeze as well. i hope my parents bring me lots of clothes this weekend! 

rhetorical analysis 1 : volkswagon commercial

The always popular Volkswagon commercials entice and intrigue viewers of all ages. Though primarily targeted at the youth of America, approximately ages fourteen through thirty, I have personally seen all ages crack up to this commercial. Volkswagon uses the element of humor to draw in the audience’s attention. This commercial mainly pertains to the pathos of the reader. They are trying to appeal to the audience’s sense of humor by dressing in outlandish costumes and poking fun at teenager’s senses of “coolness.” This commercial is taking a jab at the popular show “Pimp My Ride” on MTV. On the show they “trick out” cars by painting them bright colors, and making them look out of the ordinary. This commercial also quotes a popular Snoop Dogg song “Drop It Like It’s Hot,” after dropping a brand new car on Jason’s old, outdated car. In addition, the German engineer in trying to be cool attempts at making some sort of Volkswagon hand gesture much like that of well known American gangs. A nickname of “Vdub” is used, poking fun at teenager’s use of slang terms and modern lingo. This commercial does a good job appealing to it’s target audience although it appears outlandish. There was no noticable logos or ethos. The main focus was on the pathos in this commercial. 

            This commercial also uses logical fallacies, the abuse of logic, to captivate the audience’s attention. Volkswagon greatly exaggerates what the youth think is cool and how they dress. They try to portray the image that if you drive a Volkswagon, you are automatically considered cool. Obviously this is not true because cool does not necessarily have a definition, nor is it defined by a type of car. Another logical fallacy in the commercial is that German’s are all really smart and technologically savvy. They have engineers in their stereotypical white lab coats with thick German accents. Once again, all Volkswagon employees are not remarkably intelligent German engineers with thick German accents.

            Different ages and nationalities may view this commercial differently. German’s may take offense to the abuse of their accent in the commercial. The elderly may not understand the jokes that Volkswagon is trying to convey if they are not up to date with modern pop culture. Even middle aged adults might not get the joke of the commercial if they do not have teenage children or if they are simply out of the loop. Volkswagon took a risk in making this commercial at offending many of it’s potential customer’s; however, from experience, their target audience approves of the humor in their commercial. I believe this commercial was successful in relaying their message to their target audience. 

today my favorite part of the day was abruptly cut short. my friend liza frantically approached me as i was rowing and exclaimed "its 8:57 were gonna miss one tree hill!" i was forced to immediately drop what i was doing and sprint back to the room. as we rush through the door we see all of our friends sitting in my room staring at the screen. "whatd we miss?" we exclaim. "uhhh theres no new episode on tonight guys" replied my roommate, elise. i was so angry! i cut my workout short and raced home for nothing! it was all a waste. i hate tv. you can never count on it to always be there for you. the elliptical and the track; however, will always be there for me. i can count on them. yes im one of those losers who loves to run and sing obnoxiously to my ipod even though i cant sing to save my life. anyway i was too lazy to walk all the way back to the gym after we walked all the way back to easton so i wasted that hour talking and laughing with my four best friends who live in my room. were overly obsessed with each other obviously..then the hills was on at 10:00 and i decided that it mirrors my high school life exactly. its actually scary. i think i am the real LC. whoever reads this is gonna be like okay this girls a psycho but i sware the same exact situations all happened to me. its really weird. so im kind of becoming obsessed with this show. yes my life is pathetic i know. and now im watching the angels v red sox game. and the angels just tied it up in the bottom of the 8th..im so excited. this is awesome. i will be so unbelievably happy if they win tonight and even the series. now i have an excuse to stay up till the game ends and can procrastinate from doing my bio lab for even longer. nice! im gonna go watch the end! 

"its the most wonderful time of the year"

this weekend was awesome as usual. the playoffs are in the air. i loooove october. im the biggest baseball freak ever. im from new york so obviously im a yankees fan and i was ridiculously depressed they werent even close to making the playoffs and the red sox did. so naturally ive been rooting against the red sox. lets go angels! even though theyre down 2 games to none it can still be done. i have faith haha. im also rooting for the dodgers because i love and miss joe torre. im so glad they won. i watched them clinch last night. obviously im at a frat party and everyones dancing and talking and drinking, and im sitting there glued to the tv and everyones like why is this girl watching baseball? and my friends all think im insane. but whatevs its what i like. im watching the phillies game right now. i kinda wanted milwaukee to win since they knocked the mets out. it would have been bittersweet but its just as good if the phillies win since theyre the mets rivals anyway. (my boyfriends a HUGE mets fan so i love making fun of him) im actually hoping the rays win it all. theyre so young and talented they could create a dynasty. alot of them arent half bad looking which is always a plus when im trying to get the girls to watch the games with me haha. i hope it ends up being dodgers v rays in the ship. the rays must beat boston in the alcs or i will kill someone. ugh i hate boston so much. no offense if anyone reading this is from boston. it just bothers me that the curse of the bambino was broken. i was a believer haha. naturally my roommate is from miami, florida, yet she likes the red sox. that would happen to me. but luckily shes not really that into baseball she just says shes a red sox fan. so we have a nice little rivalry going on. shes been printing out posters of anti yankee things and RED SOX RULE posters and pasting them over my yankees posters. right now the background of my computer is a new york state license plate that says RED SOX SUCK. i want it. i wish that was my license plate haha. okay im going to go watch the rays game after watching the phillies clinch it..its bottom nine now. 

ahhhhh im so tired..its saturday night at 7:45 and im about to fall asleep. . this is terrible..i need some way to wake uppp...we all woke up at 9 today because my roommate and i both forgot to turn off our alarms..we had like 5 people sleeping in our room and everyone woke up i felt so bad..we did the same thing last weekend too! were really good at remembering things as you can probably tell..none of my friends like their roommates so they all sleep in my room..its kind of entertaining..we have a blow up bed that fits two people so usually two of them are sleeping on it..my friends roommates boyfriend is here for the weekend so shes like not allowed in her room..her roommate put up a sign saying "do not disturb for atleast thirty minutes" we got a good laugh out of that one but poor liza didnt have her phone or money or anything..this weekend has proved to be amusing as all the other previous weekends have been..we went to a white party last night..it was fun..at..i dont even remember what frat had it lol..then we came back to the dorm and had just as much fun..one of my friends decided to pretend she was swimming on the lounge floor..so everyone came in to make fun of her..then we made so much food..yummyy bowl apetite..thats like all we eat now..okay im going to attempt at dragging my lazy rear end to the gym before i fall asleep

stupid stupid computers

i officially hate how in college everything is on the computer. im so pissed because i was busy all day today so i didnt have time to do my chem pre lab. so i just went on the computer to complete it because my lab is tomorrow, and it wouldnt let me open the file. now why wouldnt it let me open the file? i dont have class until 8am tomorrow so why shouldnt i be allowed to complete my pre lab at 1am if i want to? how come in math because its written i can complete my math hw at 9am when its due at 11am? people say computers help so much meanwhile i hate doing all my assignments on the computer. like yeah obviously typing papers and writing in a blog like this is appropriate for the computer but doing my chemistry homework with all the calculations is a royal pain in the you know what..why cant i show my work and hand in my homework so i can get partial credit..half the time the computer grades it wrong when its right anyway..it is to all of the student's advantages to be able to hand in work..all of my professors have their TA's grade the tests and homeworks anyway so whats the difference whether we do it manually..we should get to chose which we feel more comfortable with..especially in bio my teacher puts quizzes up on ELMS and only makes them available for one day..what if your really busy that day? what if your traveling on a plane somewhere? waht if youre deathly ill? and on top of this you only get one attempt at it..my friend's computer froze and shut off after she opened it so she emailed the teacher to ask if she could try again and she said nope too bad..luckily she drops your two lowest grades but that is really unfair because she didnt even recieve a chance to try it..and in chem i dont think they even drop any of your grades so i just got completely screwed over by time..i cant control time..theres only so many hours in a day that i can get things done in..i still have 10 million other assignments to do..i guess apparently chemistry has to come first from now on since it has to be completed by a certain time..ugh im just so frustrated its one thing if you get things wrong and you dont understand something but its so frustrating when your losing valuable points for no apparent reason