just a day, just an ordinary day

i am absolutely exhausted and its only monday..i never knew how emotionally draining one weekend can be..im finding that as i get older, i grow up faster..recent events have made me realize how much i have changed in the past year..time seems to be going by so quickly..its scary how fast time flies..i am eighteen years old..thats so old! i remember when i was thirteen and i looked up at the eighteen year olds like wow theyre so much older than me..and bam, five years later..here i am..theres nothing fantastic about it other than the fact that we get to vote and we can get into clubs and bars? woo hoo..sometimes i wish i could go back to being that naive thirteen year old that didnt really understand the world..back then we all got along..boys were interesting and school really wasnt that hard..as the years went by, people changed, secrets were lost, friendships were made and broken, school never failed to be a pain in the rear end, sports became more competitive and ruined lives and friendships, girls lost their lives obsessing over boys and vice versa, loved ones died along the way, embarassing moments seemed to last forever, and the good times never seemed so good..even though throughout high school i often felt as if i could have murdered some of my best friends for being so stupid..after you go away and realize how much you miss them, you realize that you love them for who they are..and that no matter what happens you will always be there by their side..even if it means taking a five hour bus home to be home for a day..though distance will continue to draw us apart for years to come, and we may lose touch, in times of hardship your true friends always find their way back home